Friday, March 4, 2011

Heavy hearted but hopeful

It's been challenging these past couple of weeks to sit down and quiet my heart and mind.
Life has been busy...
           endless loads of laundry
                  piles of dishes and toys everywhere
         to finally packing up this home that we have lived in for 9 years and transitioning in a few weeks to a beautiful new home that my parents have so graciously
provided for us.

As thankful and blessed as I feel....
right now at this moment,
my mind feels chaotic and my heart feels heavy.

We just found out today that according to VOA (Voice of America),

"Ethiopia is cutting back by as much as 90 percent the number of inter-country adoptions it will allow, as part of an effort to clean up a system rife with fraud and corruption....
Ethiopia’s Ministry of Women’s, Children’s and Youth Affairs has issued a directive saying it will process a maximum of five inter-country adoptions a day, effective March 10. Currently, the ministry is processing up to 50 cases a day, about half of them to the United States."

I had to read this article several times for the reality to sink in.  I immediately felt disheartened and angry...   there will be even more orphans added to the current millions already in Ethiopia that may never feel the warmth and love from a mommy and a daddy. I could feel myself panicking and


I felt everything becoming blurry as though the Lord was refocusing my eyes to see from His perspective. 

Just this week, our mom's small group did our inductive bible study on Ephesians 3:15-21. A few weeks ago, Sol also claimed this scripture for our family and has been reading it to us every Saturday night.   

"For this reason I kneel before the Father, from whom every family in heaven and on earth derives its name.  I pray that out of his glorious riches he may strengthen you with power through his Spirit in your inner being, so that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith. And I pray that you, being rooted and established in love,  may have power, together with all the Lord’s holy people, to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ, and to know this love that surpasses knowledge—that you may be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God.

Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us,  to him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, for ever and ever! Amen. "

I initially felt extremely powerless, but after being reminded of this scripture I suddenly realized that His power IS at work even when I can't see it.  I think about the Apostle Paul, writing from prison telling the church in Ephesus: " For this reason, I kneel before the Father..." 
I am also brought to my knees - for this reason... to cry out to the Lord for His mercies to fall down on each and every one of these children. Each one of them matter to Him and He knows each one by name.  I'm so thankful He IS able to do "immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine..." otherwise I would be hopeless.

Please continue to keep us and the many other waiting families in your prayers. We don't know what's ahead or around the corner... but what we do know is that our Faithful and Loving Heavenly Father  DOES know and He is the only One that keeps us hopeful.

1 comment:

  1. I adore how spiritually sensitive you are in this process and how you and Sol are claiming Scripture for your kiddos, reading it over them, pleading before God on their behalf. It's a gift that I know God is depositing into your kids, even the 2 of them in Ethiopia. Much love and prayers!