Friday, March 25, 2011

Showers of Blessings and celebrating a new season

I prayed hard that it wouldn't rain today.  Unfortunately, it's pouring rain as I speak.
Today is our BIG day!  Our final moving day. Saying good-bye to this cozy, little home that has been filled with 9 years of beautiful memories.
Alot of laughter, tears and many friends/family from every season of these past 9 years have entered this home. It's been a blessing. A tremendous blessing. 

Sol and I never had the intentions of moving from this place.
We started this adoption journey with no expectations of a larger home. We were ready for 2 more children in our 1100 sq. feet/ 2 bedroom home.  
So we were surprised when our parents gave us this incredible opportunity to upgrade to a brand new home as part of their investment not just for themselves but for us! They also had their 2 beautiful Ethiopian grandchildren that we haven't even met in their thoughts. 
We are so grateful. SO GRATEFUL!

So as I hear the rain this morning, I am reminded of his shower of blessings on all of us!  Although we haven't done anything to deserve His blessings, He never ceases to amaze me with how much He loves us.  
I am also SO grateful for our loving and generous parents that never hold back from blessing us and so many others.  Their hearts of generosity are amazing.  

As we enter a new season at this new home, I'm grateful to celebrate it with this rain. His showers of blessings on us.   

Sunday, March 6, 2011

Encouragement for today

It's hard not to wonder and just trust God for what this journey will look like from here on out.  It's so easy to worry and become fearful that maybe our expectations and dreams won't turn out the way we hoped it would.
Within the past 24 hours, my thoughts and prayers have been nothing more than questions and cries out to God.  All the "what ifs, are you sure? whys ..."

He has given me comfort and encouragement:

My dear friend, Alison sent me a text yesterday to encourage me to stay strong, fight for our children and pray for God's favor. What a precious reminder!
It gave me the strength to keep going and not lose hope. Thank you Alison!

This morning He spoke to me through my devotional " Jesus Calling."

" Continue on this path with Me, enjoying My presence even in adversity.
I am always before you, as well as alongside you. See me beckoning to you; Come! Follow Me. The One who goes ahead of you, opening up the way, is the same One who stays close and never lets go of your hand. I am not subject to limitations of time or space. I am everywhere at every time, ceaselessly working on your behalf. That is why your best efforts are trusting Me and living close to Me."

And He gave me some verses to meditate on today:

Psalm 47:2-7b

"Trust in the Lord and do good;
Dwell in the land and enjoy safe pasture.
Delight yourself in the Lord
and He will give you the desires of your heart.
Commit your way to the Lord;
Trust in Him and He will do this;
He will make your righteousness shine like the dawn,
the justice of your cause like the noonday sun.
Be still before the Lord and wait patiently for him;"

Friday, March 4, 2011

Heavy hearted but hopeful

It's been challenging these past couple of weeks to sit down and quiet my heart and mind.
Life has been busy...
           endless loads of laundry
                  piles of dishes and toys everywhere
         to finally packing up this home that we have lived in for 9 years and transitioning in a few weeks to a beautiful new home that my parents have so graciously
provided for us.

As thankful and blessed as I feel....
right now at this moment,
my mind feels chaotic and my heart feels heavy.

We just found out today that according to VOA (Voice of America),

"Ethiopia is cutting back by as much as 90 percent the number of inter-country adoptions it will allow, as part of an effort to clean up a system rife with fraud and corruption....
Ethiopia’s Ministry of Women’s, Children’s and Youth Affairs has issued a directive saying it will process a maximum of five inter-country adoptions a day, effective March 10. Currently, the ministry is processing up to 50 cases a day, about half of them to the United States."

I had to read this article several times for the reality to sink in.  I immediately felt disheartened and angry...   there will be even more orphans added to the current millions already in Ethiopia that may never feel the warmth and love from a mommy and a daddy. I could feel myself panicking and


I felt everything becoming blurry as though the Lord was refocusing my eyes to see from His perspective. 

Just this week, our mom's small group did our inductive bible study on Ephesians 3:15-21. A few weeks ago, Sol also claimed this scripture for our family and has been reading it to us every Saturday night.   

"For this reason I kneel before the Father, from whom every family in heaven and on earth derives its name.  I pray that out of his glorious riches he may strengthen you with power through his Spirit in your inner being, so that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith. And I pray that you, being rooted and established in love,  may have power, together with all the Lord’s holy people, to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ, and to know this love that surpasses knowledge—that you may be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God.

Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us,  to him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, for ever and ever! Amen. "

I initially felt extremely powerless, but after being reminded of this scripture I suddenly realized that His power IS at work even when I can't see it.  I think about the Apostle Paul, writing from prison telling the church in Ephesus: " For this reason, I kneel before the Father..." 
I am also brought to my knees - for this reason... to cry out to the Lord for His mercies to fall down on each and every one of these children. Each one of them matter to Him and He knows each one by name.  I'm so thankful He IS able to do "immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine..." otherwise I would be hopeless.

Please continue to keep us and the many other waiting families in your prayers. We don't know what's ahead or around the corner... but what we do know is that our Faithful and Loving Heavenly Father  DOES know and He is the only One that keeps us hopeful.