Saturday, November 12, 2011

9 months, labor pains and still waiting


It's been 9 months since we sent our dossier to Ethiopia and in a couple months we will be approaching our 2 year mark since we began our adoption process. As much as I have tried to draw parallels between this process and my previous pregnancies... it has been nothing like it.  At least throughout pregnancy, you get to visit your OB on a consistent basis and have your belly measured, hear the heartbeat, and get a couple ultrasounds to confirm that your baby is healthy and well. But with adoption,  there is no tangible reassurance and no promising timeline of when your children will come home.

I've had conversations with God asking him if He'd be willing to share any of His secrets with me..
"So... can you tell me the gender/ages of our children? and by the way, how are they doing...? "
I experience these conversations with God as a deeper way of connecting to our children and letting my faith and trust grow deeper in Him. 

I have literally felt my heart expanding by the day and by the month since we began our process. About a month ago I experienced significant movement.... labor pains.... there was ALOT of kicking... as if God was urging me to pray more specifically for our children and pray more often.  Now my heart feels like it's about to explode.

As we continue to wait and near our 2 year mark, I continue to run to God for affirmation and He never fails to respond with words of encouragement.

Tonight He used both of my boys to remind me through Scripture of His promises.

Ethan gave me Jeremiah 33:2,3

“This is what the LORD says, he who made the earth, the LORD who formed it and established it—the LORD is his name: 3 ‘Call to me and I will answer you and tell you great and unsearchable things you do not know.’

Isaac sang to me Matthew 6: 34

"Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own. "