Sunday, January 29, 2012

Celebrating life

Today is one of our girl's 7th birthday.  Breaks my heart that we can't be there to celebrate her life and the blessing that she is and will always be to our family.

Happy Birthday sweet girl! I am praying that our hearts will continue to knit together and that you know how much we love you!

Our family prayer for you is from Ephesians 1:18-21, 3:14-20 

"I pray that the eyes of your heart may be enlightened in order that you may know the hope to which he has called you, the riches of his glorious inheritance in his holy people, and his incomparably great power for us who believe. That power is the same as the mighty strength,  he exerted when he raised Christ from the dead and seated him at his right hand in the heavenly realms, far above all rule and authority, power and dominion, and every name that is invoked, not only in the present age but also in the one to come.
For this reason I kneel before the Father,  from whom every family in heaven and on earth derives its name.  I pray that out of his glorious riches he may strengthen you with power through his Spirit in your inner being, so that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith. And I pray that you, being rooted and established in love,  may have power, together with all the Lord’s holy people, to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ,  and to know this love that surpasses knowledge—that you may be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God.
  Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us,"

Friday, January 27, 2012

Humbled

My eyes well up with tears as I am reminded of God's goodness. We received our acceptance paperwork today from our case manager as well as a lengthy email that shared many more details of our children. As I read through the emails, I felt struck down with humility and thankfulness that God would choose Sol and I to love and adopt such beautiful children.

I glance at the pictures of our children several times a day wondering when will we get to meet them. I wonder what they are thinking as they are looking at pictures of us that are posted on the walls of their bedroom.  As much as I try to wrap my mind around all of this, I still can't understand it all.  I'm just amazed to know that there are 4 precious children waiting for us.

So as each day is filled with the busyness of homeschooling, parenting and my many attempts to cook healthy meals and keep our home a sanctuary (although not such a quiet one), I am eagerly waiting for  everything to move quickly. Everyday that passes by means one more day of waiting....
I'll admit that I'm not feeing so patient these days.  With adoption, things could move surprisingly quickly or dreadfully slow. Right now we are waiting for our homestudy update tomorrow to be complete so that our petition to adopt can be sent to and filed at the regional court where our children reside.  We are also asking God to supernaturally provide for all that we need. He is stretching us to believe the impossible and trust His goodness.


Monday, January 2, 2012

Courage

 “Courage isn't about knowing the path, it's about taking the first step.” – Katie Davis;

It's hard to believe we are approaching our 2 year mark since we began our adoption.  I remember the initial excitement of completing our application and wondering how it was all going to unfold. I also remember the sudden panic of "what are we doing???"  Our emotions weren't enough to stop us from taking the first step. God gave us the courage to walk in obedience and then we let Him carry us through every step of the way.

We began our adoption with pursuing one child under 18 months.  Our initial letter of intent stated that " we wanted to be considered to adopt one baby boy under 18 months old." 

But then...

Through a dream and confirmation from 2 close friends, we decided to adopt 2. Thankfully we made this decision before our home study was written. Our first home study stated that we were approved for 2 children (either gender) under 36 months old. 

Then we waited....

Our second home study update approved us for 2 children up to 48 months old. 

We waited some more.... while God was doing His thing...

And then... He brought these 4 children to our attention.

FOUR????  

The reaction from family and many others around us was somewhat amusing. As much of a surprise as it came to our dear friends and family, it was certainly a pleasant suprise for us.
We knew we couldn't turn away and walk in another direction. These children were calling our name...and maybe we were calling theirs.

Courage... - it "isn't about knowing the path..."

I love how Katie Davis defines courage.  She had no idea the path that was ahead of her when she headed to Uganda for her first missions trip... but she took that first step.

We don't know the path that is ahead of us. Right now, today... this minute... I am overwhelmed.
We just received more pictures of these children and our hearts have fallen so deeply in love with them.
I have so many mixed emotions. Our hearts ache for the loss and the grief that these children and so many orphans have had to experience.  The road ahead to Ghana still seems long and daunting. 
Every part of this process is still out of our control. 

It took courage to take the first step and it will still take courage to wait until these children are officially ours. 

At the end of the day, I can rest in knowing that I don't have to know the path ahead, but I do have full confidence that He is holding our hand through it all.

"  For I am the LORD your God
who takes hold of your right hand
and says to you, Do not fear;
I will help you. "
(Isaiah 41:13)